Dragonflies, My Totem

Summer, 2018, Louisiana

Summer, 2018, Louisiana

totem

[toh-tuh m]

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noun

1. a natural object or an animate being, as an animal or bird, assumed as the emblem of a clan, family, or group.
2. an object or natural phenomenon with which a family or sib considers itself closely related.
3. a representation of such an object serving as the distinctive mark of the clan or group.

Zombie Haiku

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My life!!!!!  My 'give a shit' is officially dead...kaput.  From here on out it's my way or the highway.  My hair is silver/white.  It's as short as I could cut it.  One side is shaved bare.  I'm thinking of getting a tattoo there.  I'm in severe pain 24/7...in too many places to even mention.  Walking hurts.  Standing hurts.  Sitting hurts.  Just call me PAIN.  

I envy the zombies.  They're already dead.  They're just walking bodies, waiting for the delicious, sharp blade of that glimmering sword to end their empty existence.

Please, cut me...

Lagniappe

The Magnificent Leon Bridges singing 'River'

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My favorite new artist, Leon Bridges...

RIVER

Been traveling these wide roads for so long

My heart’s been far from you
Ten-thousand miles gone

Oh, I wanna come near and give ya
Every part of me
But there's blood on my hands
And my lips aren’t clean

In my darkness I remember
Momma’s words reoccur to me
"Surrender to the good Lord
And he’ll wipe your slate clean"

Take me to your river
I wanna go
Oh, go on
Take me to your river
I wanna know

Tip me in your smooth waters
I go in
As a man with many crimes
Come up for air
As my sins flow down the Jordan

Oh, I wanna come near and give ya
Every part of me
But there's blood on my hands
And my lips aren’t clean

Take me to your river
I wanna go
Go on,
Take me to your river
I wanna know

I wanna go, wanna go, wanna go
I wanna know, wanna know, wanna know
Wanna go, wanna go, wanna go
Wanna know, wanna know, wanna know
Wanna go, wanna go, wanna go
Wanna know, wanna know, wanna know

Take me to your river
I wanna go
Lord, please let me know
Take me to your river
I wanna know

Songwriters: Austin Jenkins / Chris Vivion / Joshua Block / Todd Michael Bridges

Everything Good Between Men and Women by C. D. Wright

Or what if "1984" by George Orwell was not fiction?

 My favorite Oscar Wilde quote.

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Everything good between men and women

has been written in mud and butter
and barbecue sauce. The walls and
the floors used to be gorgeous.
The socks off-white and a near match.
The quince with fire blight
but we get two pints of jelly
in the end. Long walks strengthen
the back. You with a fever blister
and myself with a sty. Eyes
have we and we are forever prey
to each other's teeth. The torrents
go over us. Thunder has not harmed
anyone we know. The river coursing
through us is dirty and deep. The left
hand protects the rhythm. Watch
your head. No fires should be
unattended. Especially when wind. Each
receives a free swiss army knife.
The first few tongues are clearly
preparatory. The impression
made by yours I carry to my grave. It is
just so sad so creepy so beautiful.
Bless it. We have so little time
to learn, so much... The river
courses dirty and deep. Cover the lettuce.
Call it a night. O soul. Flow on. Instead.

~C. D. Wright

There is a Pain So Utter - Emily Dickinson

Two weeks post surgery.  Staples removed later that day. Ouch!

There is a pain -- so utter -- by Emily Dickinson

There is a pain -- so utter --
It swallows substance up --
Then covers the Abyss with Trance --
So Memory can step
Around -- across -- upon it --
As one within a Swoon --
Goes safely -- where an open eye --
Would drop Him -- Bone by Bone.

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I'm hobbling without the walker, but with a cane.  It feels like there's an iron fence post implanted in my leg.  Trying to bend it is excruciatingly painful and feels impossible.  No pain, no gain is what they say in physical therapy.  It's very hard to cause yourself pain on purpose...almost impossible, but necessary to progress.  I get highly nauseated every time I do my exercises or walk.  This experience hurts worse than childbirth...

Please pray for me & my family.  We desperately need healing... God Bless.  ~Marion