Dear Old by Marion

My treasures on my kitchen altar.  I love the fish bone I found on a beach in Galveston shaped like Jesus on the cross.

Dear Old:

I fucking HATE you.

The pain, the dry everything

that once was not,

the gravity, the falling,

the feigning, the lack of,

the emptiness, the clicking

& clacking of my bones,

the no-fucking-hormones,

the ugliness of bare,

the loss, the LOSS, THE LOSS,

the fat, the jowls, the bags,

the feeling like a hag,

the stench of death

where once was life,

the strife,

the longing for an ending,

the end of beginnings,

the day's glued to days,

the pain, the pain, the endless PAIN!

the regret, THE REGRET(!)

the no money, no vacation,

the stagnation,

the _______.

11/4/16

Write a Book a Year by Deborah Digges

Ten years ago Deborah Digges took her life, jumping off the top of a stadium.  I like to think she flew.  Being a poet is a painful occupation—-we feel too much.  

Happy Poetry Month (which is all year at my house).

Write a Book a Year by Deborah Digges

Well the wild ride into the earth was thrilling,
really, scared as I was and torn and sore.
I say what other woman could have managed it?
My life before then
picking flowers against my destiny
what glance, what meeting,
who was watching, what we don’t know we know,
the hour we chose and we are chosen.
And suddenly the dead my mission,
the dark my mission.
He’d find me pounding out the hours.

Spring is for women, spring clawing at our hearts.
We are pulled forward by our hair
to be anointed in the barren garden.

I want the dark back, the bloody well of it,
my face before the fire,
or lie alone on the cold stone and find a way
to sleep awhile, wake clear and wander.

From:  “The Wind Blows Through the Doors of my Heart”

Seizure by Marion

Seizure

By Marion

FLASH!!! 

Lights, lights, lights,

Bright, bright, bright, bright!

FIREWORKS!  BOMBS!!!!!!

     Knocked me off the bed——-

Shocks!  Volts of electrified light

EXPLODING in my head, my head,

MY HEAD IS ON FIRE!!!!!!!!  

Sleep has tossed me into

Hell’s blazing flames!

Am I dying?

(Brain storm)?

CLANG, CLANG, CLANG

CLANG, CLANG, CLANG, CLANGING!!!!!!!!!

CACAPHONY OF SYMBOLS CRASHING!

Can’t move, can’t scream...

Suddenly, abruptly, it’s over.

Only echoes & spasms

jerking my shocked psyche

and body...

I wake, stunned, broken

and

shattered.

3/29/19

Spring - Godlight

Spring has returned. The Earth is like a child that knows poems. ~Rilke

The Dolls by John Ciardi

Miss Tee-Joy

Sunny, Tee-Joy’s sister. 

There’s a world of collectors of these unique, beautiful, mesmerizing Blythe dolls.  These two sisters, Tee-Joy and Sunny, were made by a doll customizing artist in Detroit.  My non-customized dolls all come from one place:  The Junie Moon Shop in Tokyo, Japan.  They’re not sold anywhere else except EBay.  A fun, interesting hobby.

The Dolls

BY JOHN CIARDI

Night after night forever the dolls lay stiff

by the children’s dreams. On the goose-feathers of the rich,

on the straw of the poor, on the gypsy ground—

wherever the children slept, dolls have been found

in the subsoil of the small loves stirred again

by the Finders After Everything. Down lay

the children by their hanks and twists. Night after night

grew over imagination. The fuzzies shed, the bright

buttons fell out of the heads, arms ripped, and down

through goose-feathers, straw; and the gypsy ground

the dolls sank, and some—the fuzziest and most loved

changed back to string and dust, and the dust moved

dream-puffs round the Finders’ boots as they dug,

sieved, brushed, and came on a little clay dog,

and a little stone man, and a little bone girl, that had kept

their eyes wide open forever, while all the children slept.

John Ciardi, “The Dolls” from In the Stoneworks (New Brunswick, NJ: Rutgers University Press, 1961)

March, Winter’s Death Mask by Marion

Winter Snow, 2015

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March, Winter’s Death Mask

By Marion Lawless

The spindly, naked trees are gently swaying—

one warm day, a row of tiny

leaves appear, marching up the branches,

specks of green from dead-looking, dry limbs,

like baby grasshoppers walking slowly in file.

Cold returns for a bleak few weeks,

knocking on the doors and windows, trees bowing in respect,

the jade leaves clinging as if glued to each branch.

Cold rain beating the new emerald-hued grass

sheets of ice, clear, like bits of tiny broken glass

fighting to stay much longer, in spite of time passing,

the sunshine gently molding mud, 

an annual mystical task...preparing

Winter’s death mask.

3/11/19

A Blessing by Denise Levertov

A Blessing

By Denise Levertov

'Your river is in full flood,' she said,

'Work on---use these weeks well!'

She was leaving, with springy step, a woman

herself renewed, her life risen

up from the root of despair she'd

bent low to touch,

risen empowered. Her work now

could embrace more; she imagined anew

the man's totem tree and its taproot,

the woman's chosen lichen, patiently

composting rock, another's

needful swamp, the tribal migrations---

swaying skeins rotating their leaders,

pace unflagging---and the need

of each threatened thing

to be. She had met

with the council

of all beings.

'You give me

my life,' she said to the just-written poems,

long-legged foals surprised to be standing.

The poet waving farewell

is not so sure of the river.

Is it indeed

strong-flowing, generous? Was there largesse

for alluvial, black, seed-hungry fields?

Or had a flash-flood

swept down these tokens

to be plucked ashore, rescued

only to watch the waters recede

from stones of an arid variety?

But the traveler's words

are leaven. They work in the poet.

The river swiftly

goes on braiding its heavy tresses,

brown and flashing,

as far as the eye can see.

From: "Breathing the Water" by Denise Levertov, pages 6 - 7

"Children and lunatics cut the Gordian knot which the poet spends his life patiently trying to untie." ~Jean Cocteau

"Poets are like magicians, searching for magical phrases to pull rabbits out of people's souls." ~Glade Byron Addams

Carpe noctem

Carpe noctem

To those anonymous cowards leaving crude, nasty comments:  I screen my comments so no one is reading your vile, racist, socialist, anti-conservative vomit, but me.  Please stop. Get a life.  I will never mention y’all again.  

Clear Night by Charles Wright

A beautiful painting by my 14 year old artist/granddaughter, Mary Mace. 

CLEAR NIGHT

By Charles Wright

Clear night, thumb-top of a moon, a back-lit sky. 

Moon-fingers lay down their same routine 

On the side deck and the threshold, the white keys and the black keys. 

Bird hush and bird song. A cassia flower falls. 

I want to be bruised by God. 

I want to be strung up in a strong light and singled out. 

I want to be stretched, like music wrung from a dropped seed.   

I want to be entered and picked clean. 

And the wind says “What?” to me. 

And the castor beans, with their little earrings of death, say “What?” to me. 

And the stars start out on their cold slide through the dark.   

And the gears notch and the engines wheel.

Charles Wright, “Clear Night” from Country Music: Selected Early Poems. 

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“All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.” 
― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

Perfect Song by Ed Sheeran

Perfect by Ed Sheeran

I found a love for me
Darling just dive right in
And follow my lead
Well I found a girl beautiful and sweet 
I never knew you were the someone waiting for me
'Cause we were just kids when we fell in love

Not knowing what it was
I will not give you up this time
But darling, just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own
And in your eyes you're holding mine

Baby, I'm dancing in the dark with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song
When you said you looked a mess, I whispered underneath my breath
But you heard it, darling, you look perfect tonight

Well I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know
She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I'll share her home
I found a love, to carry more than just my secrets
To carry love, to carry children of our own
We are still kids, but we're so in love
Fighting against all odds
I know we'll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be my girl, I'll be your man
I see my future in your eyes

Baby, I'm dancing in the dark, with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song
When I saw you in that dress, looking so beautiful
I don't deserve this, darling, you look perfect tonight

Baby, I'm dancing in the dark, with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song
I have faith in what I see
Now I know I have met an angel in person
And she looks perfect
I don't deserve this
You look perfect tonight

Songwriters: Edward Christopher Sheeran