Saturday, June 13, 2015

The Clock By Marion


The Clock
By Marion

...is very important when in chronic pain
because, of course,
the clock, the clock, the fucking CLOCK
is Master, Ruler, Tyrant, God.

God tells me, whispers (tic-toc) into my aching 
bones, marrow, muscles & tissue
that it's time to swallow
more
poison to ease the torment for a few (very few)
blissful hours. Tic-toc, unlock those neurons
that bind to the ravenous receptors
in my brain that carry
this vicious/exquisite venom
to my constantly tired, 
cotton-wrapped/warped brain.

Tic-toc SCREAMS the clock, the clock
which no amount of sound will block---
an hour's gone (one, NOT two) but it's too soon
(too late) &
the pain refrain is endlessly
ringing, tolling in my ears: 
more, more, (no more!), MORE, M-O-R-E...

Never enough, time's too short, too long.
Too much pain, too many/few pills
never enough relief---
thief, stealing my life
killing me slowly & for what?
One hour of relief, seldom two,
four times a day.
Forget sleep or counting sheep
they're bleeding, bleating & hurting
too. 

Death will be the
only escape
from this throbbing, robbing hell.
Only death can
stop the damned
screeching tyranny of the ticking,
sickening clock.

Tic-toc it mocks, it mocks, it mocks

tic...
...toc.


6/12/15

4 comments:

Mama Zen said...

This is a powerful piece. Truth.

Marion Lawless said...

Why, thank you, MZ. I'm happy you're back from vacation. I missed you! xo

Kelly said...

I feel this poem more than you know...

Chronic pain/discomfort is wearying. A thorn in the flesh.

(((hugs)))

Marion Lawless said...

Hugs back at you, Kelly. I appreciate you!! xo